Ever since a friend of mine did a post about a song that she felt was her theme song to life I have been racking my brain trying to figure out what my song would be. I was surprised that I couldn't find one that explained everything that I feel. I figured that this must just mean I'm an incredible enigma that is so complex no one could ever find the words to describe me. I'm sure its actually that I'm so ordinary that a true musician would never want to write a song that would be so mundane, but I like the former better. Its more dramatic and mysterious.
Anyway, I started thinking that I could just make a compilation of lyrics that I relate to. But then, this song by Blue October came out on their new cd. Every single line and word of it describes exactly how I feel every single day of my life.
"Picking Up The Pieces"
I really need to talk with you
I keep stepping on the vein that keeps my lifeline flowing through
I wanna be your perfect stick of glue
But I don't feel perfect at all
I’m a sad and insecure flaw
I find it hard to hold a conversation
I get sweaty, sick and I wanna walk away
It’s not you, it’s strictly me in this situation
But I'm wondering will it ever go away...just go away
Sometimes I feel like weeping
Awake and when I'm sleeping
Perfecting how to put a game face on
And this puzzle I've been keeping
Has been in hiding, creeping out the closet door
Spilling out onto the floor
How long will I be picking up the pieces
How long will I be picking up my heart
Listen… I'll be as honest as I feel
I feel like I’m getting more paranoid ‘cause I'm hearing things
And they never turn out real
It feels like my heart is made of pure steel
It's just so heavy all the time
I'm scared of death
I'm scared of living
I gave up on the past ‘cause it's unforgiving
I misplaced my trust
I watched my world begin to rust
I'm that balloon about to bust
I need a place for reliving
How long will I be picking up the pieces
How long will I be picking up my heart
How long will I keep picking up the pieces in the corner of my mind
How long (it’s getting oh so hard to find)…
But I still walk on
4 comments:
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I just meant that raised a lot of questions for me. But you said it's actually a happy sounding song and I like the closing line, so I guess I'm getting the drift.
Wow Suz. That's deep. Good song. And you know what? I'm so glad you walk on.
I love this song.. okay I love all of Blue October songs! Nice pick!
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